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Name: aniTa
Birthday: 10/4/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: Listening to music, Playing guitar, Bands, Chatting, Daydreaming.......etc
Expertise: Sleeping, Singing, Reading
Message: message me
Member Since:
3/4/2003
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| I am soooo obsess with this song...
I was listening to it at the place....
I wanted to cry, 'coz this song freaks me out....
but you know....life is like this..
you could never get what you wanted,
you can only get all the crap and stupid leftovers...
maybe that's my life...
I have tried so hard, I have worked so hard
but it turns out to be a load of crap..
and I am ... nothing....
新宿街頭十餘萬人 怎麼竟然撞回熟人
問我共你 何解於街角擁吻
私奔心情突然下沉 小小戀情若然被擒
就會結束 欄途被責問
＃當世界明路 行盡了
母須見光也許 更美妙
拖了天國下來地底不再受騷擾
整個商店街 沉沒了
無非要給你跟我製造環迴迷路 沒完沒了＃
＊沒有 找到出口 出去也好 終點一世也未到
迷宮之中 你必須跟我好
途人們相繼地回家 如果正在播新聞報導
題目會是發現一對男女地底街裡失蹤
(題目會是証實這對男女活得一切安好)
一生都不出去也好 一街商店繼續掃
長居於此何用再找地圖 疲勞時早報當做被鋪
如果肚餓了 草餅當飯
相愛到忘了歸途 地底街跟你終老＊
手拖喼還未磨蝕前 總可一齊滯留十年
坐厭麵店 行一圈花店書店
東北西南蔓延沒完 都開僻成地牢樂園
若要探險 巡迴山手線
Repeat＃
沒有 找到出口 出去也好 終點一世未到
迷宮之中 你必須跟我好 途人們相繼地回家
如果正在播新聞報導
題目繼續會是這對男女數個月來搜索不到
東京街角的傳聞在散播 都衷心祝我好
別人在談論時會說換了他做未別做到
誰能為一點愛幕一種態度
不顧一切的 來上訴
Repeat （＊）
I am ready to go.....
I am ready to leave it all.......
Come on, let's walk out......
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| Honesty is always a key element in every relationship
I love being honest to my friends,
because I love to share my thoughts and my own things with them
but this time...honesty kills it all...
Maybe I am too used to the way we communicate
so that I wanna share every single thing with him
but....there's always something which we should really keep it to ourselves..
e.g. my feelings towards him
I never doubt myself how much I love him
and I am never ready to know the truth,
as in he treats me as his best mate...
sad isn't it?
I had a long night last night..
couldn't sleep at all...
many options pop up in my head
many ideas come up in my mind
I wanna leave
but I do not have the guts to do so
stupid me......everything is all planned ahead...
and I have to go with it..
so I might as well enjoy the very last moment
and feel bitter later..
in my own little world...
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| I feel so left out
don't know why
maybe my expectation is too high
everyone around me seems to be moving forward
but me....
so left behind
I sense that we will come to an end pretty soon,
don't know why
maybe I am just thinking too much
or maybe the honeymoon is over
I was soooo looking forward to "that"
but not anymore
I feel scare, helpless and hopeless
I hate to see the truth
I am too scare to face the truth
this world is crazy
how can I let go of you
how can I stop myself from loving you
it's crazy to love you
and it's crazy to be around you
I hate this feeling......
and I start to hate myself....
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| everything seems so unreal to me..
although nothing is committed,
but I enjoy spending time with you..
even though I have no idea how long will this last
but I have nothing to lose..
I just wanna share this moment with you~~~~
on the other hand...
I feel insecure sometimes
time is running out
I am going back to the real world soon
sometimes, I hope this dream can last forever
but sometimes...I wanna get out of it asap
it's very contradicting, isn't it?
life is like this....
we can never make the right decision..
or should I say, you are pretty sure which decision is best for you,
but you just don't wanna pick it,
because you are too used to with the pain,
and you keep giving yourself excuses,
so that the "wrong decision" seems sensible....
but the truth is...
you have to make the right decision to keep everyone around you happy,
because they are the outsiders and they know more than you do...
and here I am..
blinded by him
I am struggling....
where's the truth?
what's the right decision?
where should I go?
I have no idea at all,
ta, you are real stuck~
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| so...I get to see him almost every other night....
but there's always someone else....
we always hang out together as a trio,
so there are three of us...
it looks as if we are 3 really good / close friends,
but then...
things happened again...
I thought I have control myself pretty well
I thought I didn't want to fall into this trap again
I thought I never mind about his other affairs.....
but it turns out that....
I do care alot
I think I love him....
but our friendship seems very precious at this point
and the other thing is that...Tarot told me not to....
should I believe in myself or should I believe in Tarot?
I am not quite sure...
all I know is...
I miss him...
even though I will see him tomorrow....
I should hypnotize myself with some positive energy....
life is not all about love and guys....
life is about family, career and hopes....
I should pick up my dream again..
and not those stupid affairs!!
Ta, please wake up!
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